The wind...it's hard to describe the wind.
Lost and empty. The way desert is lost and empty.
And at the same time, so full.
Tuesday, February 27th, 2007
Posted in Photography, Place, Seasons, Weather on February 27, 2007| 1 Comment »
Posted in Dreams, Family, Politics, Random, Writing, tagged conversations, resistance, the work of writing on February 18, 2007| Leave a Comment »
“Hey, I was thinking, you ought to just publish your book.”
“I don’t have a book to publish.”
“Oh, well then, just write a book and find someone to publish it. You’re a great writer, I know someone will want to publish your book.”
“Well, that’s what I’m working on…writing a book.”
“Oh, good, what’s it about?”
“Well, no, I mean, I wrote an essay and once I finish that I’d like to get it published, and then maybe I’ll work on the book. I might use the essay as a launching point for the book.”
“What’s stopping you from just writing the book?”
“Well, it’s finding the time and figuring out the format of the book.”
“You’ll find the time, you always find the time.”
“Yeah, it’s true, so I guess maybe it’s more about the format.”
“I think you need to just do it.”
“I have been…what do you think I’ve been doing all this past year with the intensive and all my writing practice?”
“I don’t know… In the words of Nike, you need to just do it.”
“Yeah, OK, you’re right.”
“Good, cuz I really want to read your book.”
“OK, Patty, you’re going to read the book. Hey, do you want to read the essay in the mean time?”
“Yeah.”
“OK. Good-night.”
“Good-night.”
Posted in Animals & Critters, Holidays, Politics, Practice, Work, Writing, Writing Practices, tagged stream of consciousness, the practice of writing, writing about Chinese New Year on February 17, 2007| Leave a Comment »
It’s the Year of the Pig, I hear. Starting tomorrow. I think of pig, piggy, how I used to worry when I first started doing writing practice with this group, way back before we were bloggin’, that I was being too piggy. Taking up too much of the airwave.
Then I realized, Aw, they can always delete if they don’t want to read. Of course, I never delete. I used to delete when I wrote with a huge group; you have to. But with a small writing community, and all being writers whose writing draws me in, I never delete. Ever. And it never feels burdensome. It’s strange how on this eve of a new year, I know that writing has become an integral part of my life.
I’ve written for many years. Many, many years. I started my first journal when I was 12, I think. It was the year I got a tumor removed from my right knee. My sister, who was ten years older than me and doing student teaching in a small town, came home that summer with a book order for me that she’d gotten from Scholastic. I always remember the smell of a new book order, that paper binding odor, how there’s something fresh about it. And the shiny unbent, unbroken paperback book bindings. And the cool titles. My kids get book orders now in elementary school and it’s the same thing. Back then I got a Summer Diary, not a hard-backed one but a paperback, a mustard yellow cover with a drawing of a lock on it. Inside in the first few pages were stickers: A Joke, What I Read Today, My Secret, My Favorite Color, What I Learned Today, News, and so on. I would peel off a sticker and put it in the day’s entry. I had to always manufacture whatever thought or bit of information I wanted to go with the sticker. That part was my least favorite; my most favorite was just being able to write.
The Year of the Pig, and I feel abundant like a pig. Or does a pig feel abundant? I feel full and big and round of belly and heart. Pigs in the Chinese zodiac are said to be generous. I feel generous and grateful for others’ generosity. For writing that has taken hold in me. And me in it. I still have the little diary my sister gave me. After filling out about half of it, I got tired and stopped filling in the rest of the days of that summer. I guess after spending two weeks or so in bed post the surgery, during which I had little else to do but write, I lost interest. I don’t recall if I ever had another diary, at least not until I was 23. I did get one at the age of 23. I still have it. And since then, for more than two decades, I’ve written and written and written. Filled many diaries and journals and notebooks. And now computer screens.
I wonder what I would find if I went to a Chinese restaurant tonight. Would they all be full? I’m craving a potsticker.
Posted in Life, Love, Money, Personal, Topic Writing, tagged Netflix, routines, taking it easy, writing about easy on February 16, 2007| 1 Comment »
This morning I walk into the bedroom, stop to pick up a piece of straw and its friend, lint. It is not easy to keep the house clean always. Oh, I see a note from Netflix, they received the DVD I sent yesterday. Netflix makes movies easy. I was wondering who came up with the idea, how long the idea will last before that, too, becomes obsolete. It’s good while it lasts.
In the bedroom the bed is unmade. On top of that a pile of clean clothes. Dee and Em watch Arthur, an episode about Arthur and DW learning how to cooperate as they clean their rooms together. Arthur’s parents are patient and make parenting look easy. The dad mouse stops vacuuming while the mom mouse sits at her computer. “I’ll go take care of this one,” he says after they both hear DW scream “MOM!!!” No one to help me fold clothes. Jim is in the kitchen heating up chicken fingers from dinner last night for the girls’ breakfast. That’s an easy breakfast.
What is easy? Writing, just letting it flow, is easy. Although Natalie said there’s always that initial resistance. I don’t know that I feel that each time. Sometimes I do. If the writing is for something other than just practice, and even sometimes then I pause. Writing is not exactly easy right now. The phone rings. It’s Renee. “Are they going to ride bikes to school today?,” she asks. “Jim,” I yell into the other room. Yes, they are, I relay the message. But then again, maybe I shouldn’t try to write in the middle of morning routines.
Routines, and do they make life easier? My routines are fairly routine. Get up, take a shower if I need to wash my hair, a bath if I don’t. On weekends often neither. I dilly dally instead of eating breakfast. Clean the house, fold clothes, write. Resistance to my day. Life would be easiest if I were wealthy, an inheritance from a rich uncle. But maybe not. Don’t they say people who win the lotteries have miserable lives afterwards? Drug addictions. Family problems. Money doesn’t buy happiness. That’s what they always say.
I guess I don’t want easy money. Nothing comes easy. It’s a funny word. After a while it sounds like greasy.
-from Topic post, Easy
Posted in Laughing, Music, Topic Writing on February 15, 2007| 3 Comments »
When I was in high school, I counted the number of I know’s in Bill Withers’ Ain’t No Sunshine. You know, the part where he goes, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know…..there are 26.
Ever since I read ybonesy’s Easy post, damn if I can’t get that song out of my head! And guess what – there are 16 easy’s.
A few days ago Richie sang his 80’s hit Hello on the Grammys. Did you catch the number of hello’s in that one? Or how about the number of disco balls in All Night Long? Did you know disco balls were first used in nightclubs in the 1920’s?
Mabel Dodge Luhan could have danced the night away in Taos and we would have never known.
How did Lionel and Mabel end up in the same blog piece ? Wild mind.
Not easy.
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“Easy”
Know it sounds funny
But I just can’t stand the pain
Girl I’m leaving you tomorrow
Seems to me girl
You know I’ve done all I can
You see I begged, stole
And I borrowed
Ooh, that’s why I’m easy
I’m easy like sunday morning
That’s why I’m easy
I’m easy like sunday morning
Why in the world
Would anybody put chains on me?
I’ve paid my dues to make it
Everybody wants me to be
What they want me to be
I’m not happy when I try to fake it!
No!
Ooh, that’s why I’m easy
I’m easy like sunday morning
That’s why I’m easy
I’m easy like sunday morning
I wanna be high, so high
I wanna be free to know
The things I do are right
I wanna be free
Just me, babe!
That’s why I’m easy
I’m easy like sunday morning
That’s why I’m easy
I’m easy like sunday morning
Because I’m easy
Easy like sunday morning
Because I’m easy
Easy like sunday morning
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Thursday, February 15th, 2007
Posted in 25 Things, Art, Books, Culture, Holidays, Money, tagged abundance, astrology, Books, Chinese New Year, ritual, superstition on February 13, 2007| Leave a Comment »
Get ready for the abundance of the Chinese New Year beginning Sunday, February 18th, 2007. Writers beware the book buying! And if you miss Valentine’s Day, you get a second shot at love – Chinese Valentine’s Day is coming up!
Notes below are from this link at Wikipedia:
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Boar | º¥ Hai | February 18, 2007 |
-The Chinese New Year dates are determined by the lunisolar Chinese calendar, which is also used in countries that have adopted or have been influenced by Han culuture, notably the Koreans, the Japanese, the Tibetans, the Vietnamese and the pagan Bulgars.
-Chinese New Year starts on the first day of the new year containing a new moon (some sources include New Year’s Eve) and ends on the Lantern Festival fourteen days later.
–The 1st day is for the welcoming of the deities of the heavens and earth. Many people, especially Buddhists, abstain from meat consumption on the first day because it is believed that this will ensure longevity for them. It is also a time where families will pay a visit to their oldest and most senior member of their extended family, usually their parents, grandparents or great-grandparents.
–The 15th day of the new year is the last day of the traditional New Year’s celebrations. It is celebrated as Yu¨¢nxi¨¡o ji¨¦ (ÔªÏü½Ú), the Chinese Valentine’s otherwise known as Chap Goh Mei in Fujian dialect. Depending on locality, the same day may also be celebrated as the Lantern Festival, or as the Chinese Valentine’s Day.
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Superstitions during the New Year period
The following is a list of beliefs that vary according to dialect groups / individuals.
Tuesday, February, 13th, 2007
Posted in Dreams, Food, Quotes, Taos, Topic Writing, Vision on February 13, 2007| 2 Comments »
Posted in Topic Writing, Word Of The Day, tagged definitions of easy, etymology, research on the word easy on February 12, 2007| 1 Comment »
-related to Topic post, WRITING TOPIC – EASY
Posted in Animals & Critters, Life, Personal, Recall, Topic Writing, Weather on February 12, 2007| 1 Comment »
Easy is a strange, hard word. Walking from living room to dining room to kitchen to bedroom. Slippered feet, 16 degrees, 8 degree wind chill. A salmon flavored cat food pebble sticks in a leather groove on the bottom of my foot. Shriveled leaves fall from a chrysanthemum by a cold southern exposure. Catnip is strewn about the bed cover; Mr. Stripeypants circles the spot, then dives in for the scent.
The cat is high. The sheets are clean, the bed is made. Easy living.
I pop the top on a Cherry Zero and the tab doesn’t flick. Instead the pressure builds, not an easy landing. I place the aluminum can in the coffee stained sink and grab another. Liz tells me a classmate, Kindra, was eager to get home from her Psychology and Religion class the other night because she was having an Easy-Lift La-Z-Boy rocker recliner delivered.
I remember the days. In the early eighties I had a second-hand, floral covered La-Z-Boy rocker in Montana. My butt was glued to the chair. I’d write chicken scratch in my journal or stare out the window or sit by the electric heater, rock, rock, rocking my life away.
These days La-Z-Boys are built right into the structure of corduroy, Scotchgarded, wrap around couches in front of 60 inch Sony flat screens. Simple life.
Simple does not mean easy.
Monday, February 12th, 2007
Posted in Music, Wake Up, Writing Topics, tagged Easy Like Sunday Morning, Lionel Richie, taking it easy, writing about easy on February 12, 2007| 3 Comments »
I don’t like the song Easy Like Sunday Morning by Lionel Richie, although the soft rock station I sometimes listen to in my car plays it quite a bit. I have it on my mind right now, in fact, after running to the bank and then to my daughters’ school and now back at work. I wouldn’t choose to buy the song nor the artist, but still, I do crave Easy. I’m a blog assignment behind, just got back from a week away, trying to sell our house, trying to keep it clean in case someone needs to see it on the spot, trying to live a life present in this moment. Would you like Easy, too?
The next time you travel somewhere, whether from the kitchen to the bedroom on foot, or to the post office in your car, or sitting on the train station going home from work, be present. Take your mind off all concerns. Notice the man standing in front of you with dandruff on his shoulder. Notice that your floors are dirty but don’t worry to clean them. Notice the sounds your car makes and how they are muffled inside. At your first opportunity, write. It can be a single haiku, a ten-minute practice, a short poem, a snippet of a memory. Whatever it is, make it Easy. Don’t stress about it. Knock it out as fast as you can or want.
Posted in Doodling, Nature, Practice, Travel, Work, tagged drawing of sunflower, flower drawings, image of sunflower, the practice of doodling, ybonesy doodles on February 7, 2007| 1 Comment »